Thoughts/Notes on 'The Chicago Underground'. [locked against CLF]

[ohstarryeyed]

Sometimes, writing everything out makes me feel better. My head is getting kinda dizzy.

When I read this.. well, it's some kind of weird unknown journal, The Chicago Underground or something. But yeah... when I read it, I only just realised how complicated this city is. I always kinda stayed out of Politics back home, but this is... it's just so much more here. This is something I never really thought I'd be able to imagine, let alone comprehend.

I thought the Rift was my main problem here in Chicago, dealing with powers I don't really want. I mean, I can guess how people might find turning invisible, making these pitch black smog screens and making shadow animals fascinating or whatever. But sometimes, I.. I just don't see the point. I didn't ask for them and I've never really wanted them, but I can't really do anything about it. I have to deal with them, I guess.

But no, that's not my main worry any more.

The whole angels and demons thing as well as the CLF.. it's really scary. It's like.. on top of everything.. there's some kind of war going on. Everyone's just fighting for so many different things. This is serious... this is... it's just something I would've never ever thought about. There's just so much more that's going on here. I feel kinda stupid for not paying as much attention. I guess I've just been scared of stuff, maybe. But right now, I just get the feeling that Wanderers are getting caught up in angels' and demons' wars and I'm worried for everyone. Most of the people I know, the people who're my friends in this city, are Wanderers and I really worry for them. I really do.

I don't even know what I'm saying any more. This.. this just sucks so bad.

I just wish people would stop fucking fighting. I'm just so, so tired now.


Also... I don't know what a 'Neqa'el' is... erm. Firsts is something familiar... is a Neqa'el like, the demon version of a First or something?

Comments

[sophicsulphur.livejournal.com]

I don't learn everything or anything, that would really be a lot! I don't think we're made for that. When I was dead I could feel and see everything but that was different because I didn't have to hold it all in me, there wasn't really a me to hold in. It's more like I just feel something about what makes them who they are deep inside. Hard to explain really. It's only happened to me twice.

I guess the supernatural community as you call it is just really nice! People keep saying Chicago's full of scary people and that's sort of true (oh hey, we actually got back to the topic of Cassie's entry, heh), but I just keep meeting nice people mostly. Maybe it is just that the community's great. Everyone's so different but we all pull together so strong.

It's okay! I think I'm a dork too. If it means what I think it means, anyway.

[pplrunincircles.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow, that sounds really powerful and intense. I don't know that I'd be able to really understand it even if it was easy to explain, but yeah.

They are nice here! Not everywhere. It's very true that Chicago's full of scary people. I've seen them all over, but there are a lot more not-scary people. There is a whole lot of good too. It's what you have to remember. No matter how dark Chicago gets, and it gets really dark. There's always good out there too. :)

UM. I don't know how to explain what dork means. It's like... a nerd kinda? When you're like weird and silly and stuff.

[sophicsulphur.livejournal.com]

It is. It really is. I, heh, kind of fell for both of those people so I guess it kind of shows what it's like to see that.

I do try and keep hold of that. It helps so much.

I think I am pretty weird and silly. Also I read books and study a lot. I think that's a nerd right? I sort of didn't use to speak this language but when I hear words and they're kind of like in my own I sort of get it. Depends how much they're the same. So basically, yes I think it's true. Hehe.